My Life

I wonder if I'll ever get out of this life, this way of living.
I feel like I'm running around in circles.
Like it will never end.
I need to get out.
It feels like a constant nightmare.
It feels never ending.
Like its never gonna stop.

There is so many secrets.
I don't want to talk about.
So many bad things that happened.
It was like I was living in a horror movie.

This was my life.
Now I can't get it out of my head.

I wake up screaming.
My heart beating fast.
Drenched in sweat.

I can't think.
I can't remember.
The last time I was,
Happy

I'm screaming out loud.
On the inside.
Help me now.
Let me out.
I need out.
Before it consumes.
My heart.
The only good left in me.